Today I looked at the sun
With what I think was distinct and marked longing
It felt like I could see again
But I need to get away, to where I'm belonging
Is that even a good rhyme?
I couldn't give a shit
But today I looked at the sun
And I felt my hands clench and my teeth grit
I shed a tear as I looked at the sun
And no, it's not from one too many a bong hit
It's because I don't fit
In this world of people who know what they're doing
But here I am, split
And everyone's saying "It gets better"
But does it?
Or does it linger inside
Baring its fangs
While my inside racks with pangs
I wish I knew what the world has for me
But I don't, I can only believe
How do you cling to hope
When it feels like it's all gone?
Why does it get so hard to smile
But so easy to become withdrawn?
Why does it feel like I'm lost
But only in my own mind?
Why is the world "so cruel"?
Well, did you expect it to be kind?
I didn't expect anything from it but existence
Not for some method to close the distance
Between those who offered me assistance
With love and careful persistence
Why then do I feel so faded?
And not high, I mean as in jaded
Perhaps because we're defined by the color we're shaded
It's like each of us is a country being invaded
I'm not trying to be wise, I'm just saying
Life is just a big game that we're all playing
Some people spend their turns praying
Well me, I spend mine surveying
There's a lot to see and a lot to learn
So you better be ready
Or someone will knock you down
When you're at your most unsteady
Not trying to be a pessimist
I just want you to know
If you shine bright enough
You will always glow
Maybe not to yourself, but there's always a person
Who can see your inner beauty, even if you think you're so-so
So don't let the flood come and wash you away
Fight like you never have
Fight for every day